So yeah about this quarantine? I never thought in a gazillion years that the entire world would be bought to the place of being still. Yet here we are. I had just gotten into a rhythm, going to the gym, starting my brand, eating super clean, writing in my blog and boom, corona-virus was like………NAH beloved!
I remember constantly complaining about my Job and how tired I was of it. I complained about the gross entitlement of the masses that you tend to experience while working in the service industry . I complained about never having enough time to spend with my children and friends. I vented often about how hard it was to find time to connect even if only by way of phone call or face-time..because I was so busy. I hardly had time to cook the way I’d liked in time past , eating although done deliberately was done so on the fly. I never had time to do a facial,read a book,binge watch Netflix, just sit and be centered.. then corona virus was like ………You do now beloved.
This paradox called covid had left me in uncharted territory. On one hand this invisible enemy that was causing several of my friends and acquaintances to become ill to the point of death, this entity that cost me and millions of others their source of income and had rendered the world fearful and on edge had some how been the unconscionable answer to prayer ….time has now been granted…. a blessing covered in blood……a lottery wrapped in loss…. a gift in the midst of grief. How do we wrap our minds around such an occurrence? sweet serendipity? or unrelenting sorrow?
Far too often the Lord moves in ways that are simply too mysterious to fathom. He allows the universe to expand, contract and give birth to things both grotesque and glorious at the same time ..twins that come to stand at our right and left side to bring lessons and blessings.. but much like a parent when given this lot, do we have the luxury of choosing one over the other? Do we take one child home from the hospital just to abandon the other? God forbid. I remember standing at the fresh grave of one of my sons while carrying the other in my belly… this is reminiscent of that time..
We now ,in between sending condolences and care packages , have time to watch that movie with our children. while doing grocery runs for friends , family and neighbors we actually get to take time to shed our love on people ..tangibly. Loss and grief has called us …suddenly called us as a universe into a deeper more electric relationship with our creator.. because all of our answers and securities have failed. There are birthday parades, first responder celebrations ,kitchen physicians healing the sick at home, pop up food pantries, love gifts,whole families being wiped out, family dinners, not enough food for some families, instagram cooking tutorials,, tele-health for managing depression,video sip and chats, video grief support,streaming funerals,tik toks,dance parties, online church services, and zoom and cash app have never seen so much traffic. its all mingled ..its all one common shared experience..our new normal.
But I pose the question, where do you stand ? what is your perspective? its up to us to decide how we come out of the strange yet sacred time that we have been given…what kind of person will emerge after we overcome this historic time of imbalance ?.. now that you have the time…all the time in the world…think about that…